A journey of weekends

A weekend at war

A state of war now exists between myself and Myles. The kid has taken to trumping on me, guerrilla style. While I didn’t retaliate at the time for fear of having a poo on his head, which would need to be rubbed into his hair and then dried with a hair-dryer, next weekend I’ll have […]

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A journey of weekends

A delayed weekend pre new job

Gone are the days of doing other people’s grocery shopping. And here are the days of overseeing cremations. To celebrate and prepare, the weekend was full of doing things. I treated myself to a haircut. ‘Treat’ lol — after however many months, it was a legal requirement. I tried to treat myself to a new […]

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A journey of weekends

A delayed long weekend for chocolate

For such a chilled weekend, it’s been go-go-go! Friday had all the kids excited. Saturday had the quickest and maddest egg hunt I’ve ever seen go down. Sunday was food coma. Monday was the alcomahol. Tuesday was run-run-run around, followed by panning for stones at the allotment. Today, has been a sort of interview followed […]

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Mental well-being

Bank holiday destruction

Today, I’ve really fancied getting out of my face. Like physically, out of it. And I’ve succeeded. Full self-destruction. But I do know, Tomorrow Tomos will regret this decision. He’ll like my face when he sees it (looser). He’ll think I’m great. He won’t appreciate the hangover. Certainly not with his job list and ear […]

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This me I be

Earache, headache, moodache

From the crown of my head to the base of my neck, in a thin strip behind my right ear, canes like a mother fucker. The ear canal feels a bit like burning, like as if I’ve taken something out of a hot oven without gloves on ‘cause I’m an idiot. A very talented idiot, […]

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A journey of weekends

A weekend that changed timezones on me

This year, British Summer Time starting didn’t start the usual Friday night before it officially starts so I can get used to it, but started 7 minutes after it started, with me confused as hell. The problem I noticed this year, what with starting work at 2am on the day British Summer Time starts, my […]

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A journey of weekends

A delayed weekend sieving soil

As it sounds, Shaun and I sieved soil over the weekend.  We got soil.  We put said soil in a sieve.  We sieved it.  We then spread the freshly sieved soil out nice over the plot with a rake.  We repeated.  But we hadn’t totally lost the plot.  We can restone Southsea beach with the […]

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A journey of weekends

A weekend delayed, much needed

The delay is in two parts, mostly because I’ve been hanging. More importantly, though — Shaun and I cracked out the cards and got to doing what is us. Mostly, skittle vodka and shithead. It’s important to do these sorts of things, to remember our roots, because life does sure like to try and topple […]

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Kitchen news

The kitchen is a shithole — I’m going to sort it out tomorrow. It didn’t start out like a shithole, but a whole day of not really being here and fuck me, it’s like a war zone! And what I don’t get is, I’ve been using the room on the hoof all day — since […]

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A journey of weekends

A weekend making up for last

Last weekend’s post (deleted) touched vaguely upon the thought that one’s worth seems determined by one’s last act.  Following on from that, there are limits to where understanding can lead before it becomes what is received. But since this weekend has ended much better than the week it closed, I’m not going to dwell on […]

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Mental well-being

Bad urgings — UPDATE

Originally posted 25/02 @ 06:27 Bad thoughts this morning. Urging ones. I’m going to ignore them. I’m going to head to the allotment once the sun has come up. I’m sure I said yesterday that today was going to be better not worse. But then again, most of what I say and feel is invalid […]

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Poems

Only me

It doesn’t matter No-one cares I’m all alone I’m all that’s there The things I do All I give Means naught to no-one Only me

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Gentleman’s Relish

I found a tub of Gentleman’s Relish on my way around Sainsbury’s today. The last time I had Gentleman’s Relish it didn’t come in a tub. It’s great on toast, delicious in fact — mildly fishy if used sparingly. Have I really been out of the game that long?

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A journey of weekends

A weekend in pjs

Well, near enough — other than the 6 hours I spent in work, but I was back by 8am so it barely counts.  Apparently, yesterday was valentines day — there’s no ‘apparently’ about it. It was. Completely forgot. Couldn’t give a shit. I heard on Capital a few days ago that people with my mindset […]

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A journey of weekends

A weekend of almost…

I tried my hand at making satay sauce and made a condiment. I put up a curtain pole and it’s only a bit crooked. I measured for curtains and should’ve done it with the pole up. But then it didn’t snow enough to make a snowman, so I drew a picture instead. Mine’s a bit […]

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A weekend searching for the kid’s marbles

Our problems began when the kid decided to count his marbles. He cracked open his head, scooped them all out, and lost a half-dozen when they rolled around the table.  A few dozen more were lost during a game of marbles.  Another handful scattered while testing out a Hot Wheels track.  A few vanished due […]

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A weekend with blinds

They arrived!!! A little battered and bruised, mind… But the blind people are sorting the damage and won’t be delivering them again through XPD unless they want them returned via their rectum. Alongside no longer having sheets as curtains, my spying game has upped a million-fold. In other news, I got repeatedly stung on the […]

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Poems

When I wish I wasn’t me

When I wish I wasn’t me When I wish I was someone else I find it hard to remember why I should like me as myself The mirror looks pathetic The mind is less than kind All is me is hard to see beneath that which I find So silently I ponder So I wish myself away I […]

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A journey of weekends

A delayed weekend of highlights

First off, my new habit has clearly not taken hold yet. Meant to be posting these on a Monday, but Monday’s seem to fail because I’m asleep when I used to post. So the big plan is to change this post to a Sunday, but it’s hard to remember to do things 24 hours earlier […]

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A journey of weekends

A weekend that ended better than it started

I went into the weekend with one of those heads that make you feel worthless and came out with a head worth its weight in gold. Even yesterday, with those bright lights like sunlight threatening to shine into my room, managed to keep my head worth every ounce. (The lights didn’t shine long — I […]

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Poems

Do see

It always comes back to me The way I do see the dayThe sun doesn’t shine the way I see itIt shines a different way

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A journey of weekends

A long weekend for a covid Christmas

Because we were strongly promised (maybe) 5 days off covid restrictions, which made absolutely no sense until I realised that covid has been working 24/7 for months, globally, so most likely had put in a holiday request, which had been approved, I set about making plans. Option A was a 3 to 4 night stay […]

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A journey of weekends

A weekend adjusting to a new sleep routine

Sunday was a 4am start, which, surprisingly, was doable. Monday was a 2am start, which, other than lying in bed staring at the clock at 0130, was surprisingly doable. Bed time, though, is 7pm. The only issue is, I’m so tired, I hardly know who I am. I’m a little vague on the days. This […]

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A weekend in a funny headspace

Not particularly hilarious, not bad nor good — hardly self-negative. For me, it was a struggle to keep a positive mind when everywhere I turned was showing up negative.  Last week had been a difficult week for the majority of the people I hold dear.  Their difficulties, while their own, remain my concern because I love […]

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A weekend, the first not self-isolating

FREEDOM!!! Oh, it’s been bliss.  It’s been the most beautiful weekend ever.  I enjoyed Saturday — finally got the book mountain on a bookcase! I enjoyed Sunday — the day to myself was like the good old days when I used to potter around solo… Of the difficulties this weekend, no Myles = the biggest. […]

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A weekend self-isolating 2

I went into the weekend without the ability to taste or smell and come out of it sniffing aromas and guessing what they are. Fun times. Almost as fun as looking out of the window at the builders queuing up to buy their sandwiches. Almost, not quite.

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This me I be

Day I don’t know + 1 of self-isolation — Uncle Oskar

While my migraine has broken and I woke up full of beans (ended up weeding and sweeping out my alleyway), across the country someways, a real proper, decent, caring, loving man I know — having fought so hard against so much — died in intensive care. The kidney failure couldn’t get him, and while the […]

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A journey of weekends

A weekend self-isolating

B O R I N G Thankfully, I have now managed to get into the swing of this covid imprisonment — I’m no longer screaming up the walls. The most ‘can do’ instilling thing to happen this weekend was a call from Myles!! Best call ever! More, please!

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Day 6 of self-isolation

Last night, I wrote: Fed-up. A lot going on.  No Myles.  No job.  Ever so slight money worries.  I’m worried for the people I love.  I miss one desperately.  I’ve been missing the point entirely.  Been trying my best and not really succeeding.  Probably not trying hard enough.  Been listening, but not hearing.  See? Nasty […]

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A weekend before a covid test

Due to the selfless dedication of one of Shaun’s colleagues who went into work with Covid-19 symptoms, last week ended on a high with jobs going out on time. For this week, their selflessness has given everyone the chance of a few days off. Shaun woke up on Saturday complaining of being hot. Sunday became […]

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A weekend much needed

I think, with how life and its troubles are self-seen, that it is important to remind ourselves (when able) of the easy joys we can find without looking.  It’s a quest to snatch — if we don’t take, we don’t have. Misery is free. A tiny snippet of joy is so easily missed. What would […]

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The need to achieve, a success

Today, I needed to achieve something a little more substantial than applying for jobs that I’m not going to get. In this aim, I was highly successful. Before: After: It took me an hour to reclaim the patio. The knotweed was a weaved mat — I’m dreading the rest of the allotment. I’ve already warned […]

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A weekend P-A-R-T-Y-ing

It was Myles’ 6th birthday this weekend. This meant one thing… And party us lads did! Friday was all about the decorating. 150 balloons tied down in lovely places and piled into the sheet tacked to the ceiling ready for the balloon drop. Next it was bunting, about a mile of the stuff — even […]

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A weekend under a spot light

The restaurant underneath is opening in a few weeks as a Thai Tapas & Sushi place. I know! Sounds exciting! To prepare for their opening night, they’ve turned the lights on to light up their sign. To me, too. Except, they don’t light up the sign. Apparently, this was the best place to put them. […]

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A weekend, the last with Bertie

The custom with a pet before having it put down is to spend its last few days before death doing fun things, having treats, and just generally enjoying the delights of life. This weekend, rail bridge repair work saw the A27 closed and my surrounding roads acquiring 30 min+ queues. So in the face of […]

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