Poems

Only me

It doesn’t matter No-one cares I’m all alone I’m all that’s there The things I do All I give Means naught to no-one Only me

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Gentleman’s Relish

I found a tub of Gentleman’s Relish on my way around Sainsbury’s today. The last time I had Gentleman’s Relish it didn’t come in a tub. It’s great on toast, delicious in fact — mildly fishy if used sparingly. Have I really been out of the game that long?

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A journey of weekends

A weekend in pjs

Well, near enough — other than the 6 hours I spent in work, but I was back by 8am so it barely counts.  Apparently, yesterday was valentines day — there’s no ‘apparently’ about it. It was. Completely forgot. Couldn’t give a shit. I heard on Capital a few days ago that people with my mindset […]

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A weekend of almost…

I tried my hand at making satay sauce and made a condiment. I put up a curtain pole and it’s only a bit crooked. I measured for curtains and should’ve done it with the pole up. But then it didn’t snow enough to make a snowman, so I drew a picture instead. Mine’s a bit […]

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A weekend searching for the kid’s marbles

Our problems began when the kid decided to count his marbles. He cracked open his head, scooped them all out, and lost a half-dozen when they rolled around the table.  A few dozen more were lost during a game of marbles.  Another handful scattered while testing out a Hot Wheels track.  A few vanished due […]

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A weekend with blinds

They arrived!!! A little battered and bruised, mind… But the blind people are sorting the damage and won’t be delivering them again through XPD unless they want them returned via their rectum. Alongside no longer having sheets as curtains, my spying game has upped a million-fold. In other news, I got repeatedly stung on the […]

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Poems

When I wish I wasn’t me

When I wish I wasn’t me When I wish I was someone else I find it hard to remember why I should like me as myself The mirror looks pathetic The mind is less than kind All is me is hard to see beneath that which I find So silently I ponder So I wish myself away I […]

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A delayed weekend of highlights

First off, my new habit has clearly not taken hold yet. Meant to be posting these on a Monday, but Monday’s seem to fail because I’m asleep when I used to post. So the big plan is to change this post to a Sunday, but it’s hard to remember to do things 24 hours earlier […]

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A weekend that ended better than it started

I went into the weekend with one of those heads that make you feel worthless and came out with a head worth its weight in gold. Even yesterday, with those bright lights like sunlight threatening to shine into my room, managed to keep my head worth every ounce. (The lights didn’t shine long — I […]

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Poems

Do see

It always comes back to me The way I do see the dayThe sun doesn’t shine the way I see itIt shines a different way

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A long weekend for a covid Christmas

Because we were strongly promised (maybe) 5 days off covid restrictions, which made absolutely no sense until I realised that covid has been working 24/7 for months, globally, so most likely had put in a holiday request, which had been approved, I set about making plans. Option A was a 3 to 4 night stay […]

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A weekend adjusting to a new sleep routine

Sunday was a 4am start, which, surprisingly, was doable. Monday was a 2am start, which, other than lying in bed staring at the clock at 0130, was surprisingly doable. Bed time, though, is 7pm. The only issue is, I’m so tired, I hardly know who I am. I’m a little vague on the days. This […]

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A weekend in a funny headspace

Not particularly hilarious, not bad nor good — hardly self-negative. For me, it was a struggle to keep a positive mind when everywhere I turned was showing up negative.  Last week had been a difficult week for the majority of the people I hold dear.  Their difficulties, while their own, remain my concern because I love […]

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A weekend, the first not self-isolating

FREEDOM!!! Oh, it’s been bliss.  It’s been the most beautiful weekend ever.  I enjoyed Saturday — finally got the book mountain on a bookcase! I enjoyed Sunday — the day to myself was like the good old days when I used to potter around solo… Of the difficulties this weekend, no Myles = the biggest. […]

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A weekend self-isolating 2

I went into the weekend without the ability to taste or smell and come out of it sniffing aromas and guessing what they are. Fun times. Almost as fun as looking out of the window at the builders queuing up to buy their sandwiches. Almost, not quite.

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Day I don’t know + 1 of self-isolation — Uncle Oskar

While my migraine has broken and I woke up full of beans (ended up weeding and sweeping out my alleyway), across the country someways, a real proper, decent, caring, loving man I know — having fought so hard against so much — died in intensive care. The kidney failure couldn’t get him, and while the […]

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A weekend self-isolating

B O R I N G Thankfully, I have now managed to get into the swing of this covid imprisonment — I’m no longer screaming up the walls. The most ‘can do’ instilling thing to happen this weekend was a call from Myles!! Best call ever! More, please!

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Day 6 of self-isolation

Last night, I wrote: Fed-up. A lot going on.  No Myles.  No job.  Ever so slight money worries.  I’m worried for the people I love.  I miss one desperately.  I’ve been missing the point entirely.  Been trying my best and not really succeeding.  Probably not trying hard enough.  Been listening, but not hearing.  See? Nasty […]

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A weekend before a covid test

Due to the selfless dedication of one of Shaun’s colleagues who went into work with Covid-19 symptoms, last week ended on a high with jobs going out on time. For this week, their selflessness has given everyone the chance of a few days off. Shaun woke up on Saturday complaining of being hot. Sunday became […]

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A weekend much needed

I think, with how life and its troubles are self-seen, that it is important to remind ourselves (when able) of the easy joys we can find without looking.  It’s a quest to snatch — if we don’t take, we don’t have. Misery is free. A tiny snippet of joy is so easily missed. What would […]

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The need to achieve, a success

Today, I needed to achieve something a little more substantial than applying for jobs that I’m not going to get. In this aim, I was highly successful. Before: After: It took me an hour to reclaim the patio. The knotweed was a weaved mat — I’m dreading the rest of the allotment. I’ve already warned […]

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A weekend P-A-R-T-Y-ing

It was Myles’ 6th birthday this weekend. This meant one thing… And party us lads did! Friday was all about the decorating. 150 balloons tied down in lovely places and piled into the sheet tacked to the ceiling ready for the balloon drop. Next it was bunting, about a mile of the stuff — even […]

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A weekend under a spot light

The restaurant underneath is opening in a few weeks as a Thai Tapas & Sushi place. I know! Sounds exciting! To prepare for their opening night, they’ve turned the lights on to light up their sign. To me, too. Except, they don’t light up the sign. Apparently, this was the best place to put them. […]

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A weekend, the last with Bertie

The custom with a pet before having it put down is to spend its last few days before death doing fun things, having treats, and just generally enjoying the delights of life. This weekend, rail bridge repair work saw the A27 closed and my surrounding roads acquiring 30 min+ queues. So in the face of […]

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A weekend prehistoric

It’s taken us 3 attempts and hours of walking, but at long last we’ve found the prehistoric fern that’s been our motivation to go to Hundred Acre Wood! It’s a crazy looking fern. We turned ’round to the kid and said that there fern’s great-great-great-so-many-greats-grandparents got eaten by a Stegosaurus! In response, the kid complained […]

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A weekend hunting for my shaver

In the old flat, my shaver/trimmer/whatever — chin hair snipper — lived in a skull by the TV. Easy to find. Never need move, of course, as long as it wasn’t in use. A week last Thursday, I put said shaver in my brown carry-all, along with a few choice things that I wished to […]

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A weekend (the first) in my new home

My bed has changed walls almost as many nights as I’ve slept in this flat. I’m loving how the ground floor (a restaurant) is terraced but our abode is detached in nature, very free of neighbourly disturbance. There’s sufficient space between our bedrooms that we can independently listen to music and bother no-one. By my […]

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My last night in this flat

I’ve had my last meal. I’ve taken my last stroll around the headland. Seen the lights twinkle. Heard the sea slosh. I’m going to watch my last movie. Have my last shower. Climb the stairs and struggle to sleep for the last time in this heat, in this flat. Tomorrow, like an obedient puppy following […]

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A weekend too hot

I’m not built for 30C+. I’m definitely not built for 30C+ and moving. Fortunately, us boys took time out of melting for paddle boarding. Those few cool hours were the best all weekend.

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A weekend with two homes

We got the keys on Friday! Sitting up in bed, here I come!!! Unfortunately, all my shit is in the wrong flat. After today, there’s two car loads moved and a very sleepy Tomos. A point for future note: Don’t move in the summer.

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A weekend that started in full panic mode

Thursday was a busy day. Interview. See Myles. Drive to Wales. It all went well until I got Shaun to change my break bulb. I didn’t turn the engine fully off. Changing the bulb killed the battery. Click-click-click. This unexpected turn of events completely threw my mind mode into blind panic. I’m not very useful […]

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A weekend flat hunting

The cupboard I call a flat is barely big enough for one, let alone two, especially not two and a half. What is needed is space, enough for two and a half men We need kitchen counters and cupboards. We need a living room that’s more than three steps from the centre of the kitchen. […]

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Another defrosted freezer, another pissed off cook

For the second time in a month, twat features here – Has turned the freezer off, not noticed, and defrosted its entire contents. It’s all mush. The cook is not pleased. There was a homemade doner longing to be eaten. Myles’ prickly palate had reasons to shout “Yum!” There was a lonesome Magnum that only […]

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