Vertigo migraines, Work

I am my own employee

Having stress induced vertigo migraines got me thinking about stress and standing on my feet. In thinking about my feet I’ve drawn the conclusion that mine aren’t the ugliest in the world, and that my two littlest toes are cute. In thinking about stress I’ve determined that there’s lots of it. Some of it is […]

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Mental wellbeing, Portsmouth Water

A year from In lieu of care

Freebie forever! I love it. I’m much better. I’d go so far as to say that I’ve reset myself back to my normal, maybe even beyond normal the other way. I’m not as silenced any more — I’m admitting what I’m thinking aloud and it’s liberating. I’m not as caught up any more — life is just too […]

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Portsmouth Water, Vertigo migraines

Back to work — I survived!!!

I made it all the way through the day, I did! Very proud — touch and go, though. It wasn’t a guarantee. My day began with dry heaving, the type of dry heaving that’s actually you being sick but nothing’s coming up. An hour of it — I ate toast to give myself something to hurl but […]

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Portsmouth Water

10 months at Portsmouth Water

I’m learning to not argue with calendars — they’re all liars but I look crazy shouting at them — so in this spirit, it’s been 10 months since I started at Portsmouth Water! That’s nearly a year! A whole year of seasons and days and doing stuff. As I try and take this diary liar as gospel, […]

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Return to work, a difference

When once I would’ve returned from leave to a sour face and an investigation, today I returned to a thank you card from management and a gift voucher. When once I could’ve inlaid my handovers with diamonds (and still had them ignored), today I got thanked for the work I’ve been putting into managing the post. […]

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Bullying, The Southern Co-operative

November 27th

Every date is the anniversary of something. Good times, things done, stuff you’d rather forget. But when some dates loom backstage memories, emotions, thoughts seem to gather to muse upon what is ahead. It can take you back. You can get taken right back to pass the same hours, hear the same things, feel the same strength and hopelessness. Sometimes it is a good […]

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Mental wellbeing, Portsmouth Water

A relapse in a good place

The last week of June saw me unable to face Portsmouth Water — this tightness rose, this sickness slapped, and for a whole week all I could manage was sleep — and since there’s purpose in ‘life continues’ this wee week was a relapse, a little hiccup en route from the Co-op. Defensive, accepting, accommodating, uncertain, insecure, self-loathing, rejected, […]

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Portsmouth Water

Portsmouth Water — 4 weeks in & ring-ring, ring-ring…

Hmm? What? That’s me! Oh, erm, ah — You’ve guessed it, I’ve been on the phones — the dreaded phones, those same phones that would’ve rendered me speechless had I answered them a week ago — and it turns out that I was mating with fuss for nothing. Monday was mock-phone-call day and Tuesday was THE day when Tracy tethered herself to […]

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Portsmouth Water — week 3, and…

Confidence. Gimme death and dead bodies and I can talk you to death — I can bring here a conversation that assists if needed, that offers the assurance that I am assisting, and it comes quite naturally to me. Gimme water and meter options and I’m all ‘huh? Don’t get it’, and I know I’ll’a “Co-operative […]

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Portsmouth Water – 2nd week in, and…

SOLD! To the lovely people — Not to so early spur the bosses into giving me a promotion and / or pay-rise — nudge-nudge (because of course this would be the way that works) — I mean it, what absolutely lovely people. From HR to Payroll, and down through the managerial rungs to the floor; I’ve met only a […]

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Portsmouth Water

My first week at Portsmouth Water

It’s the weekend AND a Bank holiday!! Hallelujah! It feels good to feel excited by such things again — after 4 weeks (really 5 months) they’d kind’a lost their fire and meaning but now I can look forward to them — I’ve always loved me a good weekend. Let me just start by saying, I […]

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In the funeral home, Mental wellbeing, The Southern Co-operative

A look back — me, a former funeral co-ordinator, reminiscing…

For the last half decade I worked in funeral homes in and around Portsmouth (and one in Worthing), and I was employed by The Southern Co-operative Funeralcare to arrange funerals and to ensure their ‘successful’ delivery. Throughout this time I worked very closely with some fantastic people who have helped me deliver well over 500 funerals, and […]

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Mental wellbeing, The Southern Co-operative

My thank you to you

I feel a little glutton with all the kind words I’ve received upon my last post — the time taken to write your uplifting messages is not lost on me and I really appreciate your outstretched hands of support, they have each offered me a strength that wasn’t easy to grasp before. I was never on […]

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