Health

Me and my bat hand

Since Easter weekend, my left hand, or more accurately every joint on my left hand, has been either a dull sort of numbness or absolute fucking agony. Sometimes, it’s been on FIRE! Through it’s day-to-day usage, I’ve either been wincing slightly or having to react like this: By the end of last week, my hand […]

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Vertigo migraines

Sat here

Sat here bawling my eyes out because I’ve battled all day with vertigo and nausea, picked my little man up from nursery, snapped at him, and sent myself home because I can’t cope. Sat here thinking about my only 2-hours with him that I ruined. Sat here wishing this wasn’t me. And the really irritating […]

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Health

In finger news…

‘Cause of that damn spider on Saturday my poor little pinky still looks deformed ’cause it’s bloated between 2 knuckles and looks like a balloon on top. It’s also a touch flushed, stingy and itchy still. The one thing it isn’t doing, other than being better, is driving me up the fucking wall! I’m going […]

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Vertigo migraines

STOP! This is an emergency! // Erm, nah

In my bag there is a box. There are many boxes and lots of pill strips. That’s all I carry around now. Pills and glasses. And exactly how old am I? 34 going on 90. Anyway, there’s this particular box, and particular pill strip, that’s named The Emergency Stop Pill. It’s got some fancy unpronounceable […]

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A journey of weekends, Vertigo migraines

A weekend not in Wales

This is my 2nd weekend in Wales in 2 months that I’ve spent in England. Some might think that I don’t want to visit my parents. And it’s true, last month they didn’t want me. One had a TV being delivered, the other antibiotics. For this month, with it being so close to Christmas, they […]

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Vertigo migraines

Brain freeze migraine (with vertigo sprinkles)

Maybe I was too smug. Maybe, because my migraines weren’t headache-aches, I rubbed it in. This past year, I do remember throwing lots of parties. Here’s me thinking I was celebrating friends when maybe I was gloating. A little shit, see. Deserve it. Or maybe, this is just a development. When once my migraines were […]

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A journey of weekends, Vertigo migraines

A weekend recuperating

Thanks to Natwest’s helpfulness, I lost my shit Thursday afternoon. And I know exactly where I lost it, too, in their ears! And as I’ve grown accustomed, losing my shit this way finds me a vertigo migraine. Oh, the joys! I’d rather not lose my shit in the first place, but it can’t be helped […]

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Vertigo migraines

A week of migraines (I know how to live)

This past week’s vertigo migraine was likely born of excess because I haven’t noticed any stress around. A little party here — one over there — it’s no stretch to see how a miserable migraine won’t like it. Perish the thought of having fun. Sickness and underwater vision. Dizziness on a tightrope. It’s such a worthy […]

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A journey of weekends, Vertigo migraines

A weekend for a wedding

Torquay, again. This time for Tanya’s wedding. These past 4 weekends have seen me driving to and from Cornwall, Torquay (twice now), and having a migraine. The migraine weekend was meant to see me in Cornwall but the migraine made me housebound. With all these long journeys behind me and the one ahead, and with […]

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Vertigo migraines

Migraine 😒

I’m sat here with another migraine. You people are jealous. My eyesight’s funny, tummy ain’t happy, and I feel heavy. Top heavy. Very unstable. This one’s been in the making for 2 weeks. Since the last outburst, I’ve been mildly migrainous every day and I’m not stupid, I can read the signs. I can’t do […]

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Vertigo migraines

Nausea and heat don’t mix

Fuck me, I feel sick. I think it’s dehydration. I know not drinking enough water can set about a vertigo migraine but too much water can set up a vertigo migraine. I find myself in a very difficult position because the just right amount of water doesn’t exist. And I drink water. Lots of water. […]

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Vertigo migraines

The consultant’s verdict

Yesterday was my appointment with the Ear, Nose & Throat specialist. Against my expectation, I was seen 30 minutes early. The consultant asked about my dizziness. When did it start, what’s it been like, how have I been managing. I wore these goggles that I couldn’t see through but he could, and he stuck this […]

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Vertigo migraines, Work

I am my own employee

Having stress induced vertigo migraines got me thinking about stress and standing on my feet. In thinking about my feet I’ve drawn the conclusion that mine aren’t the ugliest in the world, and that my two littlest toes are cute. In thinking about stress I’ve determined that there’s lots of it. Some of it is […]

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Vertigo migraines

Vertigo Migraine — I seeeee you! (not)

It’s in my eye. I’ve got something in my eye! Ugh, and it wriggles. It’s like sickly clumps threatening to weep from my tear ducts. It’s like a bear’s come along and had a shit in my eye, mushed it in so it’s clumped around the nerve. It’s like I’m looking through water, like things […]

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Vertigo migraines

Vertigo ongoing — when will it end?

Today, yesterday, Friday, Tuesday, Monday — today is the worst. I haven’t felt this bad since way back when this first started. It’s been weeks and weeks, if not a month. Vertigo. Actually, vertigo’s amateur cousin. Vertigo proper is of the ear fluid while I’ve got it of the ear nerve. Apparently not as bad. Apparently […]

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A journey of weekends, Vertigo migraines

A weekend in lieu of Paris

We’d booked this airbnb place with a view of the Eiffel Tower — I’d already got on the case to find out where things were, how to get there etcetera, and then vertigo’s amateur cousin (I’ve got an acronym, similar to Vestibular Neuritis) came up in here and saw the whole trip dead. Luckily Kayte (who I […]

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Vertigo migraines

Blood test FAIL

The nausea isn’t improving much — the dizziness is ongoing. Yesterday turned into a bit of a disaster and ended with another visit to the doctor. I’ve been prescribed new pills, Cinnarizine, signed off another week, and require a blood test to investigate further. Full blood count, glucose, liver profile, kidneys, thyroid… Blood test booked for […]

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Portsmouth Water, Vertigo migraines

Back to work — I survived!!!

I made it all the way through the day, I did! Very proud — touch and go, though. It wasn’t a guarantee. My day began with dry heaving, the type of dry heaving that’s actually you being sick but nothing’s coming up. An hour of it — I ate toast to give myself something to hurl but […]

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Vertigo migraines

Inner ear / Stemetil update

The last Stemetil I took was on Wednesday night — the world is still a bit wobbly, still a bit sickly, but not enough for a tablet. After 4 weeks of this I can safely say that I’m done, sick of it, it can fuck off — being unsteady on my feet I can accept, can use to […]

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Vertigo migraines

The hatred of my inner ear, ongoing

I got in a taxi yesterday and that was enough to set everything back off. It was like my visit to the dentist all over again, weaving down the road because I couldn’t walk straight. So to update on what my inner ear dislikes: Dentists Taxis now but I assume cars in general Phone calls […]

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Vertigo migraines

Stemetil & my inner ear

So far, I’ve not started lactating, my breasts have not enlarged, I’m not knowingly impotent nor agitated, nor have I lost my menstrual period — the possible side effects of Stemetil are quite something. I still have no balance, I still rock and sway, but as long as I take a Stemetil the sickness goes away, […]

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Vertigo migraines

The dentist & vertigo — not a love story

I’m signed off work — after visiting the dentist I can now very noticeably no longer walk in a straight line, nor stand in one place, nor sit without rocking, nor assure the integrity of my stomach, and all this since I stepped out onto the street after getting a scale and polish. It was a check-up and it’s part of the […]

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Vertigo migraines

Ménière & me

After a week of being practically housebound with any measure of noise and movement enough to set things off I have determined that for Ménière and me, drugs are not the answer — Betahistine, specifically. No. If the doctor tries to prescribe it again I shall be politely telling him where he can shove it. For all it […]

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A journey of weekends, Vertigo migraines

A weekend with my mate Ménière

Because terra firma isn’t exactly firm at the moment, more like a rolling ocean, most of my weekend was spent indoors and trying not to move too quickly for fear of throwing up. For someone who has a violent spasm every time he remembers something, measured motion isn’t easy to achieve. Besides, like whilst being […]

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